My title ran away

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2008-10-19T00:03:11Z

*sigh*
Long talk today. Went well, I just neede to remember it everytime I start to get stressed out. I just need to think: it's only time.
She's lovely, I'm irresistable. tada!

more daily crap

2008-10-18T18:01:28Z

So I don't get how you break up with someone and still fuck them. At least when it's a long term relationship. maybe it's because they aren't really broken up at all, and as per the usual, I'm fucked over into being just an object of affection. But let's think positive, let's try and do this. Um...
Uh...
If it really is just a matter of time, how can I make it until that time without fucking it up? finding out things like this is really irratating. I wanna talk about it, but is it my place? Probably not. She gets the best of both worlds I get a half assed....
She's just confused. She just needs me to support her, I think. I should just ignore it when I figure things out...

Blargh.

2008-10-17T00:52:52Z

Let's see. I feel like I'm losing today, But I feel as though I know I am not losing. That time is all that matters. Someone told me that today. It was very nice. I guess I'm doing the right things, you know? Hehe...
But I just hate not KNOWING I'm doing the right thing.
I guess that's what really gets to me.
That I doubt wether or not I am doing the right thing.
So...
I AM doing the right thing.
Time is all that matters.
yay?

Readers

2008-10-16T06:22:22Z

if your reading this, don't. like, the only plan I have to write in it is when I'm not happy, at least for the next little while, so if you see me on a regular basis, don't bother reading my journal for a while. If I have any problems, I will go privat but I don't want to do that because feedback from a couple people would b nice, especially theones I don't seetoo often.
Night night, I feel great now! :)

Melancholy

2008-10-16T06:14:34Z

Argh. depression. I'm so used to it it doesn't bother me, but I need to fight it! I said I would. But how can I win? you know? how can I think positive? Argh. I can. I need patience. I need to believe I should be happy, and other people want me to be happy, and wll try and make me happy, I just need to wait. they(her and others) have problems of their own to deal with. wow, this has really cheered me up. it makes me feel good, like all I need to be happy is effort. hehe.
yay!

Life

2008-06-21T03:17:39Z

Can't say I've been very happy as of late.
I feel like I'm going to lose the only home I've ever had due to money and half of us not having jobs....
My best friend think I like his girlfriend, which is just a horrible untruth. Not even a half truth.
I need money real bad, and my glasses are in a horrible state of disrepair. I'm about to lose my insurance...
My "i" key on my keyboard is sticking REALLY ANNOYINGLY.
Starting to get lonely, and I never talk to Lisa anymore... I guess I dunno what to think about that situation.
I guess I avoid thinking too much.

I just can't seem to bring myself to be social...

Daily journal

2008-02-23T06:52:32Z

Decent day, got a whole lot done, got my life all in order, just wish i had someone to enjoy it with. got lonely today. Not like me. Bad omen. Found a song for the worst case scenario. Smile in your sleep.

genki_genki @ 2008-02-21T02:13:00

2008-02-21T07:15:15Z

Been trying to keep up with the entries even though I'm not thinking much lately (it got too difficult). The facts Got to just be overwhelming about the only situation whose outcome was interesting to me, so, I ditched having an active thought process on it. Take me for a ride baby, I trust you.

One second they look up, next second the look down. But that's women, life, the universe, and everything. The good thing is that I'm looking at them, not along for the ride. I like my stability just fine, don't fuck with it, you won't like me if you do.
Blah Blah, purple heart.
My car is gone for good... mixed feelings, but it's for the better.
Why do I only like the damaged and/or girls?"
I'll tell you a secret, it's because I am too.
:3

"if love is a labor, I'll slave to the end"

Anywhoo, Life is enjoyable, and I'm going to enjoy it. hopefully it will be more enjoyable soon.

Daily Journal

2008-02-20T06:22:14Z

Real Quick, feeling lazy. Good day, finally managed to talk to Lisa about things, wached AMV VCA 2008, More tomorrow/later.

This is all I can Post....

2008-02-19T00:05:13Z

New Years Day:Saying Goodbye
From LyricWiki

I've got this funny feeling
that I just don't don't belong here
and your eyes make it clear
you're just like a chameleon
you change your skin
for anyone that has the time
to give you there's
but I don't really care

this is me saying goodbye
but not just for tonight
this is the final exit
I should have made so long ago
why did I wait

I've got this funny feeling
that I just don't don't belong here
yeah, your eyes make it so clear
you only have the time
when you're bored

I'm not being selfish
I'm just being ignored
your making a scene, yeah
but the scene's not making me
Saying Goodbye Lyrics

this is me saying goodbye
but not just for tonight
this is the final exit
I should have made so long ago
why did I wait

why do we wait
when it makes no difference
all the same mistakes
over and over again

this is me saying goodbye
but not just for tonight
this is the final exit
I should have made so long ago
why did I wait

this is me saying goodbye
but not just for tonight
and if you really want to make this right
you'll do something before the clock strikes

Daily Journal

2008-02-17T18:33:07Z

No entry yesterday, just a slow day. Lisa wanted to hang out, but I didn't have the time, and i think she'll be "busy" today, so bleh. these post might have to become friends only, because Ari decided she wants to flame me over the fact that I said she and Matt were bickering. How fucking retarded is that? But, I told myself if I was going to start a journal again, I'd have to write independent of what anyone thinks, or its a pointless endeavor. Actually, If she keeps posting negatively, I'll just report abuse. I have a few friends that read this that don't want to get livejournals. Anywhoo Been fixing my computer and playing guitar hero. Life is good, I just, need to make it a little better. The situation with Lisa seems to be more annoying, It's been like 2 weeks, and I've seen her for 5 minutes... well, actually, upon deeper thought, The first week she was depressed, and now she's trying to make money/job hunt/have fun, so maybe I'm the one being unreasonable.... yeah, I think so. I think my brain is empty, so back to the computer work.

Daily Journal

2008-02-16T02:49:12Z

*yawn*
Very slow, boring day. Worked, Drove home, Filed my state taxes (I owe the ONE DOLLAR) WHAT THE FUCK! But whatever. I miss hosting, and going to parties, but I dunno If I can do much about it... Probably not. Probably losing my car monday. Been in a very bouncy mood today, Tried salvia erlier, it's ok, nothing to special, definately not worth the price, I don't think. Lisa's out at a party, I'm at home alone, Ian's at a wedding, I didn't end up going to the movie, maybe tomorrow. Ari and Matt have been bickering all day, yuck. So, to some it up, bored and moody all day.

Daily Journal

2008-02-15T00:19:00Z

Good day, Good mood, gave Lisa her present and had a nice chat with her, She may come back later.
Side note: DAMN YOU JAPAN! just when I phase most of it out of my life I find this (the music and show):

The Matches

2008-02-13T20:01:40Z

"The album was leaked on February 11, 2008. Harris wrote the following on the band's Blog in response to the leak:

By chance, today marks the official unofficial CD release party of our new album A Band In Hope! It has leaked. The tiger is out of the ziplock. How may you make payment to the musicians who created it? Glad you wondered. When you download or rip the album, do something nice for a stranger. Give a dollar to one.org. Jumpstart a car. Give a rose to an old woman eating alone. Leave an open ended love letter in someone’s shoe at the gym. But actually, those examples are not as great as the ones you will come up with! Take a video of it on your camera or cameraphone or if you don’t have that, take a photo, or draw a picture, and send it to us (or yousendit.com it if it’s a big file) to us at abandinhopepayment@gmail.com Of course, when March 18th rolls around, it’s still hugely helpful to us if you buy the record. Yet we only ask that you purchase it if you love it and/or want to/ have the means to support us. Eagerly awaiting brilliant directorial debuts of good karma stirring."

Now that is an awesome band.

Daily Journal

2008-02-13T19:19:26Z

Sorry journal not going to be able to un-obfuscate my thoughts on this one. But I'm a liar, and an actor. Being dead inside helps, not that sad kind of dead, just that, I can't have complex emotions kind of dead. They're a person I left enough of me with to still ignite that soul though. I do it to make her smile. When she leaves for this long, I forget who she is, I'm just left with this, odd feeling that a care a lot about a stranger. Less confusing thoughts later, I'm having a good day so far. :D

Song.

2008-02-12T22:28:18Z

I am calling
Because you know
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to
Someone who loves you
And it's our season
So once again
The city seems wrapped in the arms of winter
Memories of you everywhere
But every time I think of you
I lose myself in thoughts of you
In conversations never had
Things I wish, wish I'd said
And every time I speak your name
It only brings you here again
And even if I dream of you
I am calling out to you

Can you hear me
I am calling calling
I am trying to get it through to you
Foolish things the foolish do

Can you hear me
I am calling calling
I'm trying to make you understand
Sometimes love is easy... but I'm happy

And though you're far away some part will stay always inside me
If you were beside me
And I could tell you but it's absurd I'm lost for words I stumble
And I'm silent
No wonder I make no sense

Can you hear me
I am calling calling
I am trying to get it through to you
Foolish things the foolish do

Can you hear me
I am calling calling
I'm trying to make you understand
Sometimes love is easy... and I am calling

I am calling

Every time I think of you
Baby and it's every time I think of you
Every time I think of you
Baby and it's every time I think of... you

Can you hear me
Calling calling

Can you hear me
I am calling calling
I am trying to get it through to you
Foolish things the foolish do

Can you hear me
I am calling calling
I'm trying to make you understand
Sometimes love is easy and I am calling

Can you hear me
I am calling
Can you hear me
I am calling.

Daily Journal

2008-02-12T16:49:56Z

Just Reading, barely slept last night due to TheMissingHat.
Thought this was interesting:
"Some studies have suggested a significant correlation between creativity and bipolar disorder. However, the relationship between the disorder and creativity is still very unclear.[3][4][5] One study indicated increased striving for, and sometimes attaining, goals and achievements.[6] While the disorder affects people differently, individuals with bipolar disorder tend to be much more outgoing and daring than individuals without bipolar disorder. The disorder is also found in a large number of people involved in the arts. It is an ongoing study as to why many creative geniuses had bipolar disorder."
waiting on Lisa, she said she wanted to file taxes, Other than that, I'm relaxing, I'm tired as shit. Probably watch deathnote. More as it develops.
EDIT: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder Very interesting reading indeed.

"Project upstream"

2008-02-12T05:47:08Z

So this is what happened after some deduction that that Salmon was a spoofed mirror.

GenkiMonkey777: ?
GenkiMonkey777: Hello?
GenkiMonkey777: gfnbgf
GenkiMonkey777: nhgf
GenkiMonkey777: mnh
GenkiMonkey777: jgm
GenkiMonkey777: jhgm
GenkiMonkey777: jhm
GenkiMonkey777: jhm
GenkiMonkey777: jhm
GenkiMonkey777: jhm
SerializedSalmon: what do you want from us?
SerializedSalmon: I don't speak monkey
GenkiMonkey777: Us?
GenkiMonkey777: Who the crap is us?
GenkiMonkey777: Neo?
SerializedSalmon: leave us and the precioussss alone.
SerializedSalmon: It's just me
GenkiMonkey777: What?
GenkiMonkey777: Me who?
GenkiMonkey777: Is your name SerializedSalmon?
SerializedSalmon: yes. why?
GenkiMonkey777: What the hell are you doing?
SerializedSalmon: Sorry about that, there was an error in our servers and you recieved bits and pieces of occuring conversations along with our intended responces.
SerializedSalmon: Now what is it you want?
GenkiMonkey777: To know what the crap is going on involving project upstream.
GenkiMonkey777: ?
SerializedSalmon: Well, I don't think that's going to happen.
SerializedSalmon: So sorry.
SerializedSalmon: Hi.
SerializedSalmon: ?
GenkiMonkey777: WHAT
SerializedSalmon: WHAT
GenkiMonkey777: No...
SerializedSalmon: No...
GenkiMonkey777: Lovely, you bounced me back to myself.
SerializedSalmon: Lovely, you bounced me back to myself.
GenkiMonkey777: FUCKERS
SerializedSalmon: FUCKERS

Wierd Part Two.

2008-02-12T04:15:52Z

SerializedSalmon (10:24:26 PM): nothing's gonna change my world.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:24:41 PM): What world is thaT?
SerializedSalmon (10:25:02 PM): ..who are you?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:25:11 PM): Who are you...?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:25:48 PM): C'mon now...
GenkiMonkey777 (10:26:54 PM): Hello? you have me intruiged.
SerializedSalmon (10:27:23 PM): well, it happens
GenkiMonkey777 (10:27:51 PM): Christian Here, VB, VA?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:27:53 PM): And you?
SerializedSalmon (10:28:12 PM): what?
SerializedSalmon (10:28:15 PM): i'm stephanie
GenkiMonkey777 (10:28:29 PM): Where the crap did you get this aim from?
SerializedSalmon (10:28:44 PM): i didn't
SerializedSalmon (10:28:48 PM): you IMed me
GenkiMonkey777 (10:29:02 PM): No I didn't.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:29:10 PM): What...?
SerializedSalmon (10:29:31 PM): well, i don't know
GenkiMonkey777 (10:29:57 PM): Right, Well this has been odd, Ciao.
SerializedSalmon (10:30:03 PM): okay
SerializedSalmon (10:30:08 PM): have a pleasant life
GenkiMonkey777 (10:30:21 PM): ...are you sure I don't know you?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:30:25 PM): Where are you from?
SerializedSalmon (10:30:35 PM): i'm pretty damn sure
SerializedSalmon (10:30:46 PM): i'm from california....
GenkiMonkey777 (10:31:15 PM): Been a decade since of been there, so, yup. enjoy existance.
SerializedSalmon (10:31:25 PM): okay
GenkiMonkey777 (10:32:24 PM): What, what's all this world changing bussiness?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:32:33 PM): I'm paranoid.
SerializedSalmon (10:32:48 PM): they're lyrics from a beatles song
GenkiMonkey777 (10:33:35 PM): Never liked the beatles much, to era-specific, though they did kinda reinvent rock and roll, Credit for that I suppose.
SerializedSalmon (10:34:02 PM): i can't comprehend someone not liking the beatles
GenkiMonkey777 (10:34:19 PM): Much.
SerializedSalmon (10:34:28 PM): still
GenkiMonkey777 (10:34:32 PM): IE 92% of there music is skippable to me.
SerializedSalmon (10:34:35 PM): they're epic
GenkiMonkey777 (10:34:47 PM): not bad music, just Era-specific.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:34:55 PM): They do not transcend time.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:35:01 PM): Exept for a few good hits.
SerializedSalmon (10:35:03 PM): how can you say that?
SerializedSalmon (10:35:16 PM): they completely do transcend time
GenkiMonkey777 (10:35:27 PM): Compare them to the cure, or depeche mode, or tears for fears, lyrics that can, and still, are alive and well.
SerializedSalmon (10:35:34 PM): or did you miss the movie they just made involving many of their songs?
SerializedSalmon (10:35:45 PM): depeche mode? are you serious?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:35:52 PM): Oh c'mon now.
SerializedSalmon (10:35:55 PM): they can't compare to the beatles
GenkiMonkey777 (10:36:04 PM): They oved electro-pop out of the uk!
SerializedSalmon (10:36:04 PM): they have maybe one good song
GenkiMonkey777 (10:36:25 PM): The beatles is trip music. It really is.
SerializedSalmon (10:36:30 PM): they're nowhere near as popular as the beatles
GenkiMonkey777 (10:36:45 PM): They're still alive and playing
SerializedSalmon (10:36:58 PM): so is paul mccartney
GenkiMonkey777 (10:37:20 PM): Paul Mccartney revolutionized the bass at the time
GenkiMonkey777 (10:37:35 PM): he was talented, but inventive, and that counts for a lot.
SerializedSalmon (10:38:03 PM): was talented? he still is
GenkiMonkey777 (10:38:46 PM): Meant to say wasn't talented.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:39:29 PM): He is very unique. I love his sound, he reinvented base, but compared to Flea or victor wooten, his technical skill is almost nothing, though he was an amazing bassist noonetheless.
SerializedSalmon (10:40:49 PM): well, clearly i won't be able to change your mind, and you aren't going to change mine, so this debate is pointless
GenkiMonkey777 (10:41:13 PM): Now, Like I said, The beatles defined a whole era, problem is, I wasn't part of that era, and very few of their songs transcend the era for me. Though "I wanna hold you hand" and yellow submarine will always be catchy as all balls.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:41:33 PM): Isn't that the point of debate, changing no ones mind? :D
SerializedSalmon (10:42:17 PM): i wasn't part of that era either, but their songs transcend time for me
SerializedSalmon (10:43:09 PM): well, i thought it was to inform and persuade...
GenkiMonkey777 (10:44:05 PM): No one changes their mind based off a debate.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:44:11 PM): Though that's debatable.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:44:12 PM): Like what? I mean, I'm not epertly versed in the beatles or anything. I just don't like the fact that a lot of their music was written skullfucked on drugs, and to relate to said songs, you pretty much have to be wasted, like a lot o pink floyd.
SerializedSalmon (10:44:28 PM): not true
GenkiMonkey777 (10:44:50 PM): Didn't drugs tear the band apart
SerializedSalmon (10:45:08 PM): and a large number of bands wrote their songs under the influence, and they're some of the best bands out there, like the doors
SerializedSalmon (10:45:29 PM): no, john lennon did when he ran off with yoko
GenkiMonkey777 (10:45:44 PM): I will give you the doors.
SerializedSalmon (10:46:01 PM): elvis?
SerializedSalmon (10:47:13 PM): nirvana?
SerializedSalmon (10:47:23 PM): jimi hendrix?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:47:38 PM): I suppose It the vocals that detracted me, his voice irks me a bit. I can listen to Robert Smith all day, But the beatles vocalist jsut irks me.
SerializedSalmon (10:48:13 PM): well, i believe all four of them sang
GenkiMonkey777 (10:48:24 PM): Elvis is music, Nirvana Is mostly famous due to deus ex machina (Though I like them), and Hendrix was Era-specific, But that man could play guitar and I can Listen all day.
SerializedSalmon (10:48:26 PM): not every song was sung by paul
GenkiMonkey777 (10:49:10 PM): Probably th ones he didn't sing on I liked better, But their vocal sound is so, I dunno, Childish? It's wierd.
SerializedSalmon (10:49:46 PM): well, they are/were british
GenkiMonkey777 (10:50:13 PM): I love British, I'm a quater myself. The streets? <3
GenkiMonkey777 (10:50:45 PM): I dunno, just, the beatles as a whole, weren't big for me, just a few catchy tunes, or a greatest hits cd would do it for me.
SerializedSalmon (10:50:55 PM): hmm
SerializedSalmon (10:51:29 PM): if you're a quarter british, shouldn't loving the beatles be in your DNA?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:51:53 PM): I'm really a 70;s+ guy anyway, and O_o I guess it should be in my DNA...
GenkiMonkey777 (10:51:58 PM): Valid point...
GenkiMonkey777 (10:52:19 PM): I'd have to say punk rock rebelion is in the dna too, the brits were great at that.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:52:24 PM): Maybe thats it?
SerializedSalmon (10:52:35 PM): perhaps
SerializedSalmon (10:52:42 PM): what about bob dylan?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:53:04 PM): Euch! I think. Can't remember who that is. Whats he known for?
SerializedSalmon (10:53:33 PM): folk singer, played the harmonica
GenkiMonkey777 (10:53:51 PM): What about.... The ramones? THe clash, the sex pistols, the cure, beethoven? The cars, Lynerd Skinerd, Kansas?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:54:12 PM): probably no on bob dylan.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:54:19 PM): I honestly don't know about him
SerializedSalmon (10:54:42 PM): i enjoy the clash, can't stand the ramones, i love lynyrd skynyrd
GenkiMonkey777 (10:55:00 PM): The Cars?
SerializedSalmon (10:55:10 PM): yeah, they're pretty good
GenkiMonkey777 (10:55:31 PM): Scratch that, I youtubed Bob dylan, I like his voice, man seems to have style.
SerializedSalmon (10:55:41 PM): oh does
GenkiMonkey777 (10:55:51 PM): Any Modern music?
SerializedSalmon (10:55:52 PM): his songs are pure poetry
SerializedSalmon (10:55:59 PM): oh, of course
SerializedSalmon (10:56:05 PM): but mostly indie stuff
GenkiMonkey777 (10:56:10 PM): O rly?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:56:23 PM): Me too. Modest mouse? haah they've been indie for ten years...
GenkiMonkey777 (10:56:32 PM): They keep changing their sound haha.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:56:36 PM): Tool?
SerializedSalmon (10:56:38 PM): no, i dislike modest mouse
SerializedSalmon (10:56:52 PM): ehh, tool is all right, but i don't listen to them
GenkiMonkey777 (10:57:03 PM): Goood. I hate tool. too cliche and bland.
SerializedSalmon (10:57:28 PM): i wouldn't say bland, but nothing that stands out about them
GenkiMonkey777 (10:57:50 PM): Coheed and Cambria, Secondhand Serenade, Panic!, Mindless Self indulgence, Sound the Alarm?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:58:50 PM): The definition of bland is that nothing stands out.
5. lacking in special interest, liveliness, individuality, etc.; insipid; dull: a bland young man; a bland situation comedy.
SerializedSalmon (10:59:02 PM): i like the sound of coheed, but his voice irritates the fuck out of me. panic! isn't even worth mentioning, they're so awful. i haven't really listened to MSI enough to have an opinion
GenkiMonkey777 (10:59:57 PM): He does have a love/hate voice. It's technically Panic now, no ! and what's wrong with them, MSI tends to be a love hate thing too...
GenkiMonkey777 (11:00:52 PM): I've got Sixx:A.M. - Life is Beautiful stuck in my head.
SerializedSalmon (11:01:08 PM): they're such sell outs, and so cliche, i wouldn't even consider them a serious band
SerializedSalmon (11:01:14 PM): i've never heard of that
GenkiMonkey777 (11:02:23 PM): Selling out is irrelevant to me, I mean, Fuck, I'd sell out. So would almost anyone. Cliche, That's an opinion, I think he's got one hell of a voice, and they're sound is refreshing retro.
GenkiMonkey777 (11:02:35 PM): You've never heard of Sixx?
GenkiMonkey777 (11:02:47 PM): MOTLEY CCRUE
GenkiMonkey777 (11:03:56 PM): It's a play on the band memebers names...
SerializedSalmon (11:03:58 PM): well, i disagree
SerializedSalmon (11:04:21 PM): maybe i have
GenkiMonkey777 (11:04:23 PM): He at least has an amazing vocal range and quickness.
SerializedSalmon (11:04:39 PM): who, the lead singer of painc?
GenkiMonkey777 (11:04:44 PM): Yeh...
SerializedSalmon (11:05:14 PM): he has a different voice, but i wouldn't call it good
GenkiMonkey777 (11:05:53 PM): I mean, going from soprano vibrato to falsetto-vibrato takes talent. Talent you have to be born with.
GenkiMonkey777 (11:06:28 PM): In like a quarter second. Though it doesnt compare to Sarah Brightman who has the best female vocal talent in existance.
GenkiMonkey777 (11:06:49 PM): Can travel over like 100 octaves in a few seconds, that sounds unreal.
SerializedSalmon (11:07:24 PM): i'll agree she has an outstanding voice, but i am not a fan
SerializedSalmon (11:07:56 PM): i think she's very annoying
SerializedSalmon (11:08:19 PM): well, this has been stimulating, but i 've got to be going
GenkiMonkey777 (11:08:39 PM): Pretty muc have to agree. Everyone has different auditory "Tastes", But raw talent, that's just sad people overlook it when they don't like the sound of it.
GenkiMonkey777 (11:08:45 PM): Ever hear of Buckethead?
SerializedSalmon (11:08:55 PM): nope
GenkiMonkey777 (11:09:31 PM): Amaizing guitarist/basist/banjo/acoustic player.
GenkiMonkey777 (11:09:41 PM): Top 10 alive.
SerializedSalmon (11:09:50 PM): well, okay
SerializedSalmon (11:09:57 PM): good bye now
GenkiMonkey777 (11:10:13 PM): Yeah.... weird talking to you, but nice I guess....
GenkiMonkey777 (11:10:18 PM): cest la vie.
SerializedSalmon (11:10:25 PM): indeed

Wierd...

2008-02-12T03:33:48Z

I just got a message out of the blue...
SerializedSalmon (10:24:26 PM): nothing's gonna change my world.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:24:41 PM): What world is thaT?
SerializedSalmon (10:25:02 PM): ..who are you?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:25:11 PM): Who are you...?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:25:48 PM): C'mon now...
GenkiMonkey777 (10:26:54 PM): Hello? you have me intruiged.
SerializedSalmon (10:27:23 PM): well, it happens
GenkiMonkey777 (10:27:51 PM): Christian Here, VB, VA?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:27:53 PM): And you?
SerializedSalmon (10:28:12 PM): what?
SerializedSalmon (10:28:15 PM): i'm stephanie
GenkiMonkey777 (10:28:29 PM): Where the crap did you get this aim from?
SerializedSalmon (10:28:44 PM): i didn't
SerializedSalmon (10:28:48 PM): you IMed me
GenkiMonkey777 (10:29:02 PM): No I didn't.
GenkiMonkey777 (10:29:10 PM): What...?
SerializedSalmon (10:29:31 PM): well, i don't know
GenkiMonkey777 (10:29:57 PM): Right, Well this has been odd, Ciao.
SerializedSalmon (10:30:03 PM): okay
SerializedSalmon (10:30:08 PM): have a pleasant life
GenkiMonkey777 (10:30:21 PM): ...are you sure I don't know you?
GenkiMonkey777 (10:30:25 PM): Where are you from?
SerializedSalmon (10:30:35 PM): i'm pretty damn sure
SerializedSalmon (10:30:46 PM): i'm from california....
GenkiMonkey777 (10:31:15 PM): Been a decade since of been there, so, yup. enjoy existance.
SerializedSalmon (10:31:25 PM): okay

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Daily Journal

2008-02-12T03:23:57Z

Forgot to floss last night, whoops! Umm... Today was good, work was long, fun chat with Lisa, decent day at home, (albiet a bit boring) my hair (my only self-concious trait) was insulted, I pouted, but It was all a joke anyway. :D I'll probably try and update before bed again, nothings on my mind at all actually, gonna go burn my lugs out some more, maybe try and get Ian over here or something This has been on my mind all day:

Daily Journal

2008-02-11T07:55:03Z

So, I feel good. I watched the Rest of no country for old Men (Again), and Donnie Darko (Again), fuck that bunny freaks me out. Talked things out a bit with Lisa, made me feel better. I said what I wanted to say, regardless of what she thinks. i just need to stop being 'fraid of the past, she's not the same Lisa, and even I (though barely) changed a bit myself. She's got some heavy things on her mind, and I can't help her. If I could, she'd be here right next to me, and I wouldn't be posting this. I know that now. She told me I'm the only one she goes to when she's depressed and she thinks someone can help. I also need to remember the good things she says instead of assuming everything is doom and brimstone when I don't hear from her (damn you paranioa). I think she needs to get out of the past, but I think that's the only time she didn't have problems in her life, the move was all problems and has been since I suppose, but that... is only true because she believes it... she's not a kid, and life is always good when your a kid. I can't blame her though, I've got a bit longer being alive than her. As for V-day, I dunno, I have one small plan, and then I HAVE NO IDEA, might go crazy and do something drastic... party, sleep, drink, club, beach, who knows... I feel good. I feel great. I need to realize, that when Lisa hits this level of obfuscation in her life, I CAN'T directly do shit. thats who she is. all I can do is radiate my happiness, and tell her how my day is, and flirt. It seems to help. But I knew that already, I just forgot...) So, work tomorow, got all the info on my taxes together, job hunting, etc. nighty night journal.

Daily Journal

2008-02-11T02:34:19Z

So I'm a twat. I need to stop being one, and remember some of the things she's said. Like "I want to be with you more than words can express" or "Yes, I am really back", or, "You've always been there". Instead of just letting myself be a tawt. I can't even really explain it. I'm just annoyed with myself. haha, Sorry honey, I just let the fact that I haven't had to worry about anyone else in the last year or so get the better of me. I'm used to ignoring the compliments people give me, 'cause there not people I wanted to be with. Well, I feel much better.

Daily Journal

2008-02-11T01:27:54Z

So, Figured out what those big ominous thoughts I was having were. Lisa is in another Crisis-time in her life. The only thing I think I can do is be understanding for her, but that makes me feel like I'm doing nothing at all. I hate feeling like I could do more (for anything) if I could just figure out how. I mean, Does she want to be with me? She says "more than she can express" so I ...haha. I guess I just need to believe it. Just my mind is naturally so curious...and paranoid...heehee. she said she might want to go clubbing alone on valentines day. I don't know what to think about that. I mean, to me, people club to meet people, or hook up... but I do understand some people go for the enviroment... and dancing, those people usually just say they're goind dancing, but why get myself worried on semantics. She also does what I do when I get upset, just say shit, random shit. I feel like every day I wait, is just one more day away from being with her. I don't feel like I'm ever getting any closer to it. I don't kow what's me being a paranoid worry-wart, and fact. But I think... It's just the past scaring me, I really do. I lost my train of thought and got a warm fuzzing feeling, more before bed I guess....

Daily Journal

2008-02-10T18:58:37Z

Just woke up, in a bit of a bad mood, but it'll clear up, I'm sure. I keep thinking all this stupid things,, I worry too much. I think I had a bad dream, and thats why I woke up in such a weird state of "oh my god, I I need to worry about everything, the world is ending" :d Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. Well, I have no Idea what I 'm doing today, but I want a cigarette...
Gotta weird feeling it might be a really good day....